كل اما تيجي

كل أما تيجى؛؛

بأبقى نفسى
أضعف وأطاوعك

مانتى عارفة من زمان
إنى نفسى
ألقى قلب زى قلبك
يحبنى ويخاف عليا


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كل أما تيجى
بأبقى نفسى
أجرى وأرمى نفسى
ما بين ملامحك
ما بين سُكاتك،،
كلامك،،
حتى خوفِك،
عليّا وانتى بتحلفى ..
وتحلفينى
"اتكلم .. شوية "
"وحياتى عَندَك"

seriously!

Is this what your mind guided you to do? 
I have nothing to say except, thanks for making me hate myself more and more but couldn't hate you! 

DMAN IT

WHY I KEEP EXPECTING ANY CARE FROM YOU!!!!!!!!
WHY FOR GOD SAKE YOU AGREED IN THE FIRST PLACE?!!! WHY YOU JUST DIDN'T SAY NO! WHY YOU MADE ME THINK THAT YOU CARE, I KNOW YOU NEVER LOVED ME, BUT I THOUGHT YOU AGREED COZ AM SPECIAL IN A WAY OR ANOTHER TO YOU BUT I WAS WRONG! I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY

I LOVE YOU ! 

I Love you

I just felt that I want to say: I Love You


and I did :)

I am not ready for this shock!

I swear to GOD am not ready for that shock! please don't do that to me. Even if I know that our story is ended with no hope. It is killing me inside to think that you will be with someone else. It is a strange feeling! I want to see you happy and comfort but not being with someone else? Am I selfish because I am thinking that way?! 


No one would answer me of course cause I am writing to myself. DAMN IT! I don't know what to do! I have nothing to do except praying to ALLAH. I need HIS support and mercy. Please GOD Have some mercy on me please please please. 


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I wish

I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.